One post a day is going to be my Lenten resolution. Some will be writing. Some will be pictures.
I know I’ll have to play catch up when #3 arrives, but that will be OK.
Today, I am just stressed…which is not good for someone who was told to stay home and not go to work.
We’ve been doing the math, and I will actually cost MORE than I make in my take-home salary for childcare. This is a broken system. And I don’t think the childcare costs are the problem. I know great childcare providers. They deserve every penny they earn and more.
It’s just that I who have worked hard, earned three master’s degrees, and who have 15 years in the field of education am worth more than I make, too. I shouldn’t feel like I have to leave a Catholic school to afford Catholic education for my children. I shouldn’t have to go in the whole financially to do a job I love and have the family I love.
I love teaching. I love being a mom. I love what Catholic schools stand for. I love the education Emma is receiving at Cardinal Hickey Academy. Even though life is busy, I love attempting to balance it all. I feel so much more like “T” getting to teach and be a mom.
I hate money. I hate knowing what I have to do means part of my heart will break. I hate that I know I won’t feel like me.
When I was single, it didn’t matter as much. I only had to take care of me. Now, I can’t just think about me and my heart. I have to think about my entire family.
I am hoping Lent helps me figure it out.
